Happy Easter everyone! 🙂 Last night after staying in bed by myself for a while the kids asked me to come join playing Zelda. All four of us were chilling on the couch. It was an old version of Zelda with that whole kids vibe going on. Also I'm chilling in my yellow care bear [...]
Don't know what I'm feeling right now.. Yesterday I worked til 19:00 instead of 17:00 and I was so exhausted and overwhelmed I felt horrible. It made me so angry and paranoia. The kids are here since yesterday afternoon. I spend most of the time in the bedroom yesterday after work. This morning went well [...]
Although Daddy said that today is a resting day in between working out, this morning Daddy and I ran outside. He said to activate the body and then he made breakfast for us 🙂 It was so much fun because the weather was good. It felt a bit like playing too. We took some time [...]
This man just hits right on the nail, or how in hell you say that.. he's funny too btw.. and weird 😛 I'm thinking.. I'm always analysing and explaining my mind.. how can I keep doing stupid things when I KNOW it's stupid but then I'm in another mindset and then all that rational stuff [...]
Part 2 actually.. the first one was a video I posted in "Inspiring words about BPD" This time the words come from people who actually have borderline and had Dialectical Behavioral Therapy.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4swWaWANUQ Personally, right now.. I'm feeling like I don't have borderline but thats probably because I just had like one good day ..
Today was so much better than yesterday! 🙂 My last few writings were sooo heavy again. That depressive mood that I only recognize when I'm getting out of it a little bit. I look over my shoulder like, wowww.. Just all that heavy energy.. Don't know how to describe it in a different way. It [...]
I'm just coming off a very distinct borderline mood that is a bit difficult for me to explain. Wanted to write an impression of the feeling but then I got off that track. I'm still trembling and there is also a lot of shame and guilt because I was spending money, that's my guilty pleasure [...]