Doing my make up now for a shoot. The way I should do my make up is not my choice this time, neither is the rest of my look for the shoot and it’s killing me because before I was even a model I was an artist. I’m in the first place an artist, not a model, not an actress, not a whore. These used to be ways to express myself but I wonder if I ever really did. Maybe most when I still did shoots with Jazzoh & RopeMarks. But the artistic side often dies when money is in play. And I’m so done!
Used to create from what I feel but I’m not feeling anything now.
Did my eyes more my way anyway..