Crash, bondage performance w/ RopeMarks, Amsterdam

Last night RopeMarks and I did a live performance on stage, outside in city center Amsterdam during the pride week! It was my first live performance with a large audience. So naturally I was a bit nervous, probably because I hadn’t done much serious bondage for half a year. RopeMarks and I were both super busy so we just didn’t find time to collaborate. Then last week he texted me and asked if I was interested in doing a show with him so I said yes. Had not seen him for 6 months so it was a good way to catch up! I was a bit nervous though, I often think “what if I can’t do it anymore, what if I am out of practice? What if the weather is too hot and something happens?”. What if?!

When we met I forgot my nerves in no time. We decided to just start slow, freestyle and see how it goes. It was so great to feel that trust again. No plan, no practice.. it didn’t bother me at all, everything was going to be okay.

The DJ, Ben Manson, was playing good tunes for an hour as the crowd was growing but we still had more than an hour before we would go on stage to do our performance. So RopeMarks put me in a rope harnass and tied my arms behind my back and lead me by my collar and a rope leash before the crowd. I stumbled behind him on my high stripper heels. Making me feel like a happy little object that had to be shown off. People made pictures and the crowd grew faster since we gave a bit of a show. The music was good so I was swaying on my high heels to the rythm even though I couldn’t move that much because of the bondage. RopeMarks changed the rope leash into a crotch rope with leash and was now parading me in front of everyone by my cunt. I was wearing almost nothing so it made me feel a bit nervous and shy, thinking about how my pussy would be visible to the people around us. I was in that mindset you know.. not that shy for real. It was way too much fun and I am too much of a slut to care enough about being exposed 😛 RopeMarks gave the cunt leash to a man in the crowd who was filming or making pictures. So he could stand in front of me and make selfies with me, then he thanked me and gave the cunt leash back to RopeMark who untied me as the opening act started.

By this time my Dutch Daddy arrived to support me during my first show! So great to have you near and cuddle and hear you say that everything is going to be alright! At this point I wasn’t that worried anymore but still.. When I see him I just become all mushy and dumb and little. Even when it’s just for a moment. From bimbo barbie doll, head up high, party pony, come here to put your phones in my face to Daddies submissive little baby girl with nymphomanic tendencies in 0.1 seconds! 😀

Margriet Planting (on instagram) sang a few songs for us, very sensual and sexy, in a beautiful golden outfit created by Dennis Diem (also on insta). Was so nice to meet you both and hang out in between performances!

It was time to kiss Daddy, take of some of my clothes to make my outfit even skimpier. Covering just enough to be legal in the open. Making me feel even better actually, especially with this hot weather! Even if it was cold.. I’m just a slut really.

When Ben Manson started playing his fine tunes again RopeMarks and I got on stage, where he lead me to the centre of the stage by a rope and tied my arms behind my back. I didn’t feel nervous at all, it suprised me but on the other hand it really didn’t. Come on, bimbo slut attention whore coming to the surface in seemingly shy girl.. Anyway… RopeMarks lead me to our suspension set up and in stages he would suspend me until my body was beautifully shaped and upside down. With every stage taking a bit more control over my body and mind. Making it possible for me to let go and give in more as I got deeper into that zone where I feel peacefull bliss and harmony. I felt a bit disoriënted now being upside down and slowly spinning. Once that would make me dizzy but eventhough it was months ago that I was in such a position I felt completely comfortable, accepting the disoriëntation and just be.

RopeMarks tied a rope to my hanging body, from my waist, to one side of the suspension bar and my neck to the opposite side. Which made me feel stretched out even more. No freedom to spin around anymore. Actually I felt slightly choked, which I love! We had many fun moments, I smile a lot when I’m tied up because it makes me so happy! But now it was time for me to be in more pain and grunt! Yay! More too love! RopeMarks showed me a large bamboo stick by hitting the ground beneath my face. The sound made me alert and I would get out of my zone enough to focus on what would come next. He then used the bamboo to hit my stomach, quite softly, so I’d bring my focus to this point. Anticipating the next hit, I heared RopeMarks smash the bamboo against the steel suspension frame right before he hit me in the stomach. Then he repeated that again and again, increasing pressure as well as the volume of my grunts. Pain, or anything actually, is way more intense when you are off the ground, upside down, tied up and completely at someone’s mercy. One of the best feelings ever… The pain increased but it was still easy to bare. Meaning that it felt a bit like a warm up to me. I totally forgot that there was a mostly vanilla audience and I experienced the show as if only 5 minutes had past while technically that wasn’t even possible. I just get into that vibe so perfectly, can it just go on forever? Maybe it was also because we didn’t work together so long and when I finally got into his rope again I just didn’t want it to end.

RopeMarks hit my stomach a few last times. Giving my body a moment to tighten it’s muscles in a reflex and then release the tention by grunting it out. It felt really good because I really am a bit of an emotional masochist. Your stomach is where you keep all your emotions and feelings, it’s sensitive and it’s a weak point. You see this in animals better though, they don’t like to be touched there unless they totally surrender to you and trust you completely. I’m like a little animal hanging in ropes, trusting completely and if I didn’t then.. yeah well, no other options! Luckely the complete trust is there. Then RopeMarks moved the focus to the inside of my upper leg, which is also a sensitive part but not in the way that the stomach is. It’s mostly physical sensitivity, that’s why my grunts from the pain were less deep I think. It’s interesting to notice and feel these subtile differences. Sometimes during a scene I am sensitive in all area’s, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually and when I grunt I can feel the tention to the freaking bone. Every cell in my body is playing a part when a scene gets to the point where I am reaching my limits. We didn’t get near there now but I remember the very intense experiences we had in the past. My mind, trying to process all the external and internal stimulation. My body trying to cope with all the restrictions and pain, I feel it in every inch of me, awakening me. My feelings raging through my body in mixed flashes of fear, anger, panic.. completion, relieve, balance and finally strength in total surrender, usually this is where my tears start to flow down my face, the high reaches point out of the fucking roof in breath taking epic awesomeness…

A bit of ADD just happened there, so back to the stage now.. where there was some more fun with the bamboo sticks, whoehoe 😀 RopeMarks shoved the stick he hit me with through the ropes between my legs, pressing it down on my crotch, ouch! Then he got another bamboo stick and shoved that through the rope behind my neck and twist it, pulling my collar even tighter which blocked the blood flow to my brain some more. Great, I felt like a tomato already anyway 😛

RopeMarks removed the bamboo sticks which gave me some relieve and blood flow back. Untied the side lines that pulled me apart and left me hanging down straight only shortly. Then he tied my body a bit more horizontal, by attaching a line to my waist. Pulling me higher, with my face close to the steel of our suspsension frame. The fun thing is that my face was near the centre of the stage while in my disoriëntated experience at the time it felt like I was with my head facing the left side of the stage. Weird huh? Anyhow.. it felt as though RopeMarks was going to attach the rope at some point there. I anticipated to be tied into a different angle and be fixed into that position. Then RopeMarks surprised me by letting go of the rope! I was swinging like a puppet on a string, which is a quite helpless way to be. Swaying by one leg only. Although I had not suspect he would do anything like that, since it was the first time he did that with me, I didn’t feel scared at all, not for a second. I did grunt because of the surprise effect it had, not from fear. I didn’t feel nausious or unwell either.

In stages I got taken down, hanging upside down from one ankle. Only shortly because it is a quite painfull way to be suspended because your whole body weight is hanging from only that point. When RopeMarks let my ankle down and laid me on my back I heared the audience scream and whistle. I wanted to turn my face to the crowd but I was spacing my brains out so I just laid still for a moment until RopeMarks grabbed the rope against my chest and put me on my two feet in one movement. While he untied my arms I faced the crowd but I didn’t registrate much because I was still in the zone, feeling super relaxed. I totally forgot that at the end of the show you got to bow for your audience. RopeMarks got my arm as I stumbled behind him to the centre of the stage. We bowed as everyone was clapping and making noise. I noticed a lot of camera’s were up in the air. The whole bowing part had made me feel a little shy. I guess I finally did realise that we were on a stage. Suprise! Good morning Arienh! Okay evening… I felt a bit silly there at that point but also very happy and the audience was so enthousiastic! Very cool!

Bondage seems to be one of the best (if not the best..) ways for me to be mindfull, reset my mind and become in an almost meditative state. It’s like channeling in a way because I lose track of time and feel alert, energetic and can do much more than I initially thought that I would be able to handle. I keep going and pull out deeper levels of strength and then more and then more again. It’s amazing. To me there’s such a power in kink, I just tap into it and go with the flow. I believe I am getting all woolly now lol! I am sure that for me there’s a connection between my process in kink and spiritual growth. I don’t feel the need to sort that out though. I am just noticing the connection and let it be.

After the show I put my high heels back on and went to my Daddy to hug him as we shared our experiences and excitement about doing the performance and viewing the show. My Daddy had to go, so I kissed him goodbye. Then people from the crowd started to come over to me asking if it was okay to make pictures with me. Which took me straight to bimbo doll mode. After that I went to RopeMarks and other people from the crew to talk and dance. Meeting some other performers and people from the audience. Later RopeMarks tied me up, arms behind my back and leash to my collar, ball gag in my mouth and lead me through the crowd, showing me off one last time. All drooling and objectified.

After partying a bit more I said goodbye to everyone. I had a really amazing time, met awesome people. Doing the show was great, working with RopeMarks again, finally, was super amazing and fun! Like always! But it was time for me to get off my stripper heels, go to my Daddy and be his little nymphomanic baby girl again.

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Show outfit and being casual in RopeMarks merch for traveling 🙂 Want some RopeMarks merchandise yourself? Go get some at http://www.ropemarks.com! Xx

Music: Through the gates – Celldweller

With love,

Arienh Xx ❤

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