BukkakeMadness

Since I’m on the train to Paris I finally got time to write about my bukkake party with BukkakeMadness. To be honest my memories are a bit vague because everything was so intense, like a heavy trip. But I’ll give it a try.

At least I know my day was busy and Boris, one of my play partners, couldn’t join me. Luckely I met the organizer of this awesome event at least once but the rest of the people were strangers. Somehow I wasn’t too nervous. Maybe I was so tired already that I couldn’t stress about the party. Didn’t had time for expectations either. Just went there and let it happen.

We were at the location where I dolled up in only a dress to give excess to my body easily and then I got collared and was put in the middle of the room and blindfolded. Sitting there like a statue, an object, merchandise ready to be checked out and tested.

Then the nerves and excitement finally did kick in. It made me feel so small and silent. People got in, I heared the door and footsteps, people talking and walking around me. I felt their eyes on me and their hands too. Some guys came to me to say hi, to touch me, check me out or talk to me. The nerves and excitement silenced me so I just giggled most of the time.

When there was clearly a group of people in the room there was a little intro to tell everyone my do’s and don’ts and basic party rules (something like “sharing is caring” :P) everyone got undressed and then the party started πŸ™‚

Many guys came closer to me and I greeted them and their hard cocks so happily. Hands we’re touching me and I felt dicks against my face and my body and I just started sucking instinctly. What was difficult for me though was that I couldn’t suck as hard as I usually do because of my new pumped up blow job lips. The feeling still was awesome though. So happy to try them on all those cocks. The blindfold helped a lot to feel more intensly and I easily slipped into my own world. Mindless, instinctive responses to cocks everywhere. What a dream come true. My mind just got blank, there was no busy day, no tomorrow, just lust for all those cocks and all those hands exploring my body. Grabbing my ass and boobs, my hair, my throat and face. My dress got pulled up but I just felt freedom from shame, freedom from thoughs.

My blindfold was taken off, finally I got to see who were using me. So far I had only heared voices, talking about me, telling each other to try me out. I felt so objectified, it still makes me super happy! Finally I was used again like the empty fuck doll I already knew I was. This is my life now and this is what I want to be, it’s so empowering.

Although I could see now I was deep into that zone, where everything is blurry. I was just gone, an empty shell filled with cocks and fingers and spit on my face and my hair. Though there was no shame, just blissfull freedom. I could just be in this moment.

The guys a lined up in a circle for me. I kissed those cocks, licking them, worshipping each and everyones wonderfull hard cock. Thankfull to recieve this experience, this amazing bliss.

I loved to suck them all, deep throating them I loved the most. My eyes would just roll back into my head while I gave into the high. Until I choked on these cocks and let the spit flow down. I’d grab the next guy and pushed my throat over his hard cock. Some of them were so big I had to fight for it, to swallow them balls deep. I felt this rage come over me, this animalistic, instinctive rage and urge to deep throat them all. Swallowing them completely. If I couldn’t I’d just grunt angrily from my cravings and try until I managed to take them in until I almost fainted. The adrenaline and mindlessness took over me and kept me going. All I noticed was what happened right in front of me, the rest of the world was gone. After some time I started to see faces and would make more eye contact. But at first there was only lust for cock and that was just my world. Nothing else. I wasn’t even aware of who touched me where and when but I got freed from my dress.

Some guy pushed his cock in my throat and when I pulled back he ignored my need for air and pushed his dick back in that throat, making me feel disorientated. I wasn’t impressed with it and kept going. If they hadn’t told me that I had reached the end of the circle I think it would’ve been endless to me. Circling around deeper and deeper down into blankness, like a blissfull empty void.

The guys came closer again and just started pulling me apart. They held my back when they shoved their cocks down my throat. I felt my neck push against my collar, choking me. My eyes turned away, my mind followed. Cocks were placed in my hands but often I felt too dumb and empty to keep jerking. Some of the guys talked to me, looked at me or I made eyecontact. Though I don’t remember words, only cocks and sometimes faces. Which caused me to connect for just a little moment until everything blurred again as I choked on these cocks.

I don’t remember my own physical excitement, my mental experience was too powerfull and taking over me completely.

It was almost like a ritual, something spiritual that happened and took me out of my body into a different dimension but that’s not something I was aware of at the time. It was impossible to produce thoughts, registrate words or experience feelings. I was an empty fuck doll doing what I am made for and in that I found happiness. I remember smiling a lot in between face fucks.

At some point the guys thought they saw blood on my face, they all stopped to check my face, my lips and throat but it was false alarm. I just sat there spacing my brains out, without pain, just eagerness and waiting to go on. And they did, full power! This break to check me made me feel really safe. Actually the chill vibe from all these people in the room had made me feel safe, secure and kept me sane and grounded enough to let go completely. I felt no fear at all, no pressure or anything.

The last 15 minutes started just when my energy started to run out. I didn’t know at all how much time had passed. In my world there was no time. I didn’t even know how many people where in the room and I was too empty to guess.

As I got torn apart this last time I felt the intensity rise as I kept choking and drooling. I felt sweat dripping down my back. It felt amazing to work up this sweat for such wonderfull cocks. Feeling like a filthy mess.

My throat was pushed on a hard cock again, from above and I felt his hands choking me. It was so hot I just gave in hanging by the neck in his tight grib. Empty and mindless like a good doll being used. It’s all I want to be in life, living it to perfection. So I finally thanked BukkakeMadness gratefully in my favorite way.

Just makes me so excited writing and reliving all this and we’re not even at the end.

I got positioned like an object. My mind was too blank to responde to words so they put me in the right position. On my knees, head back, mouth open wide.

My first cum giver told me to look him in the eye, I gazed at him with empty eyes and that was the last thing I saw, cause his load hit me right in the eye. It was so much, what a perfect start.

My mind was so blurry I didn’t notice much anymore, only people talking and laughing. Load after load hitting my face, my mouth until I couldn’t breathe through my nose anymore. In the end I was just sitting there, licking my lips, smiling and in heaven for just a little longer. Completely covered in cum, kneeling in cum and worshipping cum.

Vacant, empty and face fucked senseless. What a feeling. It’s intense and deeply empowering me. Like a deep meditation, a heavy trip, extacy and fireworks in my mind. Seriously, recieving cum, to me it is the best thing ever. It’s like a drug, I’m just such a slut for it, a total cum addict.

After the party I got helped to the shower, got help with my stripper heels and finally I got to come back to planet earth and meet everyone. Had a really good time, it’s amazing to meet such amazing people. With some I felt an awesome connection and will see again soon! πŸ™‚

Plans for other parties will be made after this one has been processed mentally. My throat and neck hurt for a few days and I was tired these days too but it was all worth it!

This respectfull and caring group is welcome of course to join again in the future πŸ™‚

Want to thank BukkakeMadness again this last time and all of you who made this possible! Love you guys! Xx

Music: Mezzanine (album) – Massive Attack

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